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Thanksgiving 2010

Many things have come to pass and many were not good in the last, almost two years, since I posted last. I'm totally on my own now with nothing but two cats, Wendell whom I have had for 5 or 6 years and Oliver whom I recently adopted. Tara had to be put down in September. I did it before she got as bad as the old man, and I had to get rid of Thor, my beautiful Thor, because he became aggressive, attacking Tara and often leaving me bruised and bandaged. I finally accepted Dave and I were over after waiting for a year for him to "talk" about us. He kept putting it off...I've only seen him three times since last December, and plan on filing for a divorce very soon. I'm just waiting for us to sort out some financial aspects about the house before filing.

I'm working on my doctorate. Got a new job. And there are many things I am thankful for.

First of all, my family, including my newborn Grandson,Erik, who is just three months old. I'm thankful for my new job that took me away from the toxic environment I was working in. I'm thankful that Dave is gone...if I think back things weren't always all that great. I'm thankful that God has provided a way for me to make it on my own. I'm thankful that now I can post anything I want on this blog and not worry about what anyone has to say.

There are many more things I am thankful for. Too many to list.

I just thank God, for giving me a new life, new hope, and a new day every morning to make mistakes or make wonderful.

LET IT GO

This helps me grow stronger EVERYDAY

Let it go for 2008...

By T. D. Jakesr

There are people who can walk away from you.

And hear me when I tell you this! When people can walk
away from you: let them walk.
I don't want you to try to talk another person into
staying with you, loving you, calling you, caring about you, coming to
see you, staying attached to you. I mean hang up the phone.

When people can walk away from you let them walk.
Your destiny is never tied to anybody that left.

The bible said that, they came out from us
that it might be made manifest that they were not for
us. For had they been of us, no doubt they would have
continued with us. [1 John 2:19]

People leave you because they are not joined to you.
And if they are not joined to you, you can't make them stay.

Let them go.


And it doesn't mean that they are a bad person it just
means that their part in the story is over. And you've got
to know when people's part in your story is over so that you don't keep
trying to raise the dead.

You've got to know when it's dead.

You've got to know when it's over. Let me tell you
something. I've got the gift of good-bye. It's the tenth spiritual gift, I
believe in good-bye. It's not that I'm hateful, it's that I'm
faithful, and I know whatever God means for me to have He'll give it to me.
And if it takes too much sweat I don't need it. Stop begging people to stay.

Let them go!!

If you are holding on to something that doesn't belong
to you and was never intended for your life, then you need to......

LET IT GO!!!

If you are holding on to past hurts and pains .....

LET IT GO!!!

If someone can't treat you right, love you back, and
see your worth.....

LET IT GO!!!

If someone has angered you ........

LET IT GO!!!

If you are holding on to some thoughts of evil and revenge......

LET IT GO!!!

If you are involved in a wrong relationship or addiction......

LET IT GO!!!

If you are holding on to a job that no longer meets your needs or talents ....

LET IT GO!!!

If you have a bad attitude.......

LET IT GO!!!

If you keep judging others to make yourself feel better......

LET IT GO!!!

If you're stuck in the past and God is trying to take

you to a new level in Him......

LET IT GO!!!

If you are struggling with the healing of a broken
relationship.......

LET IT GO!!!

If you keep trying to help someone who won't even try
to help themselves......

LET IT GO!!!

If you're feeling depressed and stressed .......

LET IT GO!!!

If there is a particular situation that you are so
used to handling yourself

and God is saying "take your hands off of it,"

then you need to......

LET IT GO!!!

Let the past be the past. Forget the former things.
GOD is doing a new thing for 2009!!!



LET IT GO!!!



Get Right or Get Left
.. think about it, and then ....

LET IT GO!!!

"The Battle is the Lord's!"

The Best Days of your Life

Just posting my currently favorite song. It so fits my life right now. Being betrayed by the man you have loved for more than 3/4 of your life cheats on you.



Lyrics | Kellie Pickler lyrics - Best Days Of Your Life lyrics

Good Bye My Dear Friend

Last night we had to put our "Old Man" to sleep. "Bubba" Bear had been with us over 15 years. Born in the backroom of our house on Lindwood Rd in LeRoy, NY...he had been a faithful friend, companion, and protector.

Bear was a bright dog. We taught him to climb the tree in our yard in E. Bethany. He even climbed a ladder once to help Dave clean the gutters on the house. Who could forget the "Timmy fell in the well" trick we taught him. He would jump in and out of the wishing well Dave had built me for mother's day. NO easy task, the sides had to be 4 ft high.

Bear had suffered seizures, first one coming when he was about 2 yrs old. Scared me to death. We medicated him only to watch him stumble around the house, higher than a kite. I remember him staring at the red light on the stereo for what seemed like an hour. He just stood there and stared. It was then we took him off the medication. Since he always remained conscious during a seizure, we thought he would be fine, and he was.

As he got older, hip problems seemed to plague the "Old Man". The summer of 2008 he began having trouble getting into the van and climbing stairs. He absolutely refused to climb the stairs in the back of the house. As fall rolled in, Bear began to refuse stairs all together.

Over the past two months, it became difficult for Bear to even stand. Over Thanksgiving I told the family it was time to think about putting him to sleep. No one wanted to. Last week, Bear got to the point where he could not stand on his own for more than a few seconds. Picking him up you could feel his brittle bones crack. Saturday we made the decision to end his suffering. Watching him over the weekend I knew it was the right decision.

I stayed with him while he drew his last breath. I know I don't want to be alone when I die, I could not do that to one of my closest and dearest friends. Though he seemed to want to fight the medicine going in to his bloodstream, I know it was the Euphoria the Vet had warned me about, and seconds later he laid his head down next to me, and finally rested.

I like to believe, as a Christian, that I'll see Bear again in heaven. I hope he understands why I did what I had to do. I could no longer watch him suffer. Though he never appeared to be in pain, never moaned or even barked when I lifted his frail body up to go outside, I know this was not what I wanted for my friend.

So "Old Man", whom I miss dearly, I love you. I am waiting till I can bring your ashes home and have you here where you belong. You were the best dog, best pet, best friend a person could ask for. I only hope I made your time here on Earth as happy as you made mine.

Sleep in peace.

Watching Thor Grow